A Fantasy

I've been acting like a bratty little girl lately and Daddy is starting to get fed up with my behavior. Finally, when I have a little pee accident in my big-girl panties, Daddy decides that he has had enough. He tells me that I am obviously not ready to be a big girl, so he's going to treat me like a baby from now on.

First, Daddy decides that he must teach me a lesson and make me a more compliant little girl. He lays me over his knee, lifts my skirt, and pulls my panties down to my knees. He begins spanking my bottom with his hand. I kick and squirm and struggle at first, but eventually the pain in my bottom and the humiliation of the scene get to me. I whimper and promise Daddy that I'll be a good girl from now on. “Are you ready to be Daddy's baby again?” he asks.

“No!” I protest, kicking my legs again. Daddy spanks me harder until my bottom turns bright pink. I cry and go limp in his lap, accepting my fate. “Daddy, I'll be a baby, I promise!” I plead.

“That's a good girl,” Daddy says as he stands me in front of him. He wipes my tears from my cheeks and strips me of all my clothing, telling me that a baby doesn't need to wear anything.

Next, Daddy puts me in my bondage mittens and places my Nuk5 pacifier in my mouth. “You better leave that paci in like a good baby,” he says. Daddy then prepares a nice warm enema and has me prop myself on my knees with my head down. He takes his time lubing up my little bottom before slipping the enema nozzle inside. I whimper softly through my paci as the enema drains into me. Daddy caresses my back and speaks soothingly to me, telling me that this is for my own good. After the enema is empty, Daddy says he thinks I need to hold the water for a while, and to help me, he slides my pink buttplug into my bottom. Then he lies me on my back and puts me in a nice, thick Abena M4 diaper.

Daddy makes me get down on the floor on my knees and tells me to crawl to the other side of the room and get my bottle. I can feel the enema doing its work in my belly as I slowly crawl. I hear the shutter of the camera as Daddy takes a photo of my crawling bottom and I feel my cheeks flush.

I find my Disney princess baby bottle, but can't grasp it while I'm wearing my mittens. I look to daddy, pouting, but he tells me to bring it to him. I'm able to knock it to the ground and push it forward with my mittened hand as I crawl back.

When finish I making my way to Daddy, he kisses my cheek and asks if I'm thirsty. I realize that I am and nod my head. He fills my baby bottle with chocolate milk and lays me across him, removing my paci as he slips the bottle's nipple into my mouth.

“Who's my sweet baby girl?” Daddy coos as I drink. I feel the enema grip me deep down in my tummy and whimper. “Finish your bottle and then Daddy will let you go potty.” I eagerly drain my chocolate milk as the urge to potty grows.

Daddy sits me up and looks me in the eye. “Do you have to go potty little girl?”

“Yes, Daddy.”

“Very badly?” he asks.

“Yes, Daddy.”

“Are you going to mess your diaper like a good little baby?”

I blush. “Yes, Daddy.”

“Say it,” he demands.

“I'm going to mess my diaper like a good little baby,” I softly repeat, my cheeks red.

“Good girl.”

Daddy puts me over his knee once again, pulling down my Abena. “Daddy's going to remove your plug,” he warns me. “Make sure you squeeze tight and hold the enema in until I say you can go.” Daddy slips the plug out of my full bottom.

“Now,” Daddy says, “if you can hold it for ten more minutes, I'll change you right away.” I glance up at him with my bottom clenched. “But if you can't hold it, you'll be getting another spanking, but this one through your messy diaper.” I pout and attempt to get up from his lap.

“Not so fast, baby girl. You're going to stay right here over Daddy's knee so he can make sure your diaper stays clean and dry for the full ten minutes. Starting...now.”

I squeeze my legs together and shut my eyes while atop Daddy's lap. He begins to rub my bottom through my diaper, which feels quite nice. I continue clenching my bottom tightly as I feel daddy's hand move lower and begin to stimulate my pussy through my thick diaper. I let out a small sigh as Daddy tells me to open my legs. I manage to open my thighs a few inches while maintaining hold of the enema that's attempting to burst from my bottom.

Daddy continues rubbing my pussy, stroking harder and faster until I'm moaning. As he circles my little clit through my diaper, I accidentally lose focus and the floodgates of my bottom open. As my enema begins to gush into my pants, Daddy says, “Aw, what a little baby. She can't even hold back her messes.”

Daddy keeps me over his lap as I mess my diaper, going back and forth between squishing the bottom of my Abena and rubbing my wet pussy through my Abena. I moan and whimper, hiding my face in embarrassment and pleasure.

I fill my diaper under Daddy's watchful gaze as he caresses me. I feel his cock stiffen underneath me. “Are you Daddy's good little baby slut?” he asks as he rubs my pussy through the heavy diaper.

“Mm-hmm,” I moan.

“Then I think you need to pleasure Daddy before your spanking.”

I obediently get on my knees in front of Daddy and he removes my bondage mittens. I flex my fingers and unzip his pants, taking out his wonderful hard cock, tip glistening with pre-cum. I lick up and down his shaft before taking him into my lips. Daddy grasps my hair and starts fucking my face. “That's my good messy girl,” he groans. He thrusts himself into my mouth as I suck his cock like a good girl. I slurp noisily as his spends himself. “Now, time for that spanking,” he says as I swallow.

Daddy makes me get on my hands and knees on the bed and feels the back of my diaper. “Someone is very messy, isn't she?” he asks.

“Yes, Daddy,” I concede.

“Who's my stinky little girl?”

“I am, Daddy,” I blush.

“Now, since you were such a good girl and swallowed every drop of Daddy's cum, Daddy has a special treat for you.” He plugs in my Hitachi Magic Wand and hands the vibrator to me. “You're allowed to use your favorite toy while Daddy spanks your messy bottom,” he says, “but you must count out your spanks and ask permission to cum.”

“Yes, Daddy!” I eagerly agree, excited to feel the vibrations through my dirty diaper.

I prop myself on one hand, the other hand holding the vibrator, as Daddy starts spanking my messy bottom. Back arched, I press the Hitachi to the front of my diaper, moaning.

“1.. 2... 3...,” I count the smacks.

“Mmm 4... 5... Oh Daddy! 6.”

I feel the mess press against my bottom and taste Daddy's cum on the back of my tongue.

“7... 8... Ohh, Daddy, I need to cum soon! 9...”

“That's a good girl,” Daddy says.

“10... Daddy, may I cum please?”

He continues spanking. “I think you can do better than that.”

“11... 12... Daddy, may I please cum in my messy diaper?” 13... 14... Please let your little diaper slut cum in her messy diaper. 15... Please? Please?”

Daddy lets his hand linger on my bottom. “Yes, you may cum, baby girl.”

I press the Hitachi hard into my clit as Daddy pushes his palm into the seat of my diaper, squishing the mess against my bottom. My whole body shakes as I cum hard into my diaper.

“That's a good little baby,” Daddy whispers.

Upcoming Purchase

I'm still pretty inexperienced with enemas, but I know that I love them. I enjoy the medical aspect of enema play, the stimulating anal penetration, and most of all, the way an enema makes me helplessly mess my diaper.

I'm going to order my own very soon and I'm excited!

I'm thinking about getting this bad boy:

Yay! Daddy and I will have lots of fun with that!

Daddy's Surprise

The last time I visited Daddy, he was at work while I was relaxing in bed wearing a Dry 24/7 and the urge to potty hit me. I decided then that it might be fun to let my daddy come home to a messy girl. I waited an hour or two, letting the need to potty grow until I couldn't stand it much longer. Luckily, Daddy was just about to leave the office.

I got up on my knees on the bed and allowed the first of my firm mess slide into the back of my diaper. I took my time messing my Dry, not forcing anything out, but relaxing and letting the poo come out whenever it was ready. It took me about a half hour to empty my bowels while Daddy made his way home.

I pressed my hand into the back of my pants, feeling the mess from the outside and wondering if Daddy would be pleased. I suddenly found myself nervous that he might not be in the mood to change my dirty diaper. I laid down on my back and relaxed, letting the insecurity pass.

By the time Daddy came home, I'd been in my pants for nearly an hour. As soon as he walked in the room, he could smell that he had a messy girl on his hands. He smiled and kissed my face before asking me to roll over so he could see my bottom.

Daddy squished and smacked my diapered bottom as I took off his pants. I sucked his yummy cock until he came in my mouth. Daddy absolutely loves letting me suck him off when I'm wearing messy pants.

After that, he lay me on my back and plugged in my Hitachi Magic Wand. I pressed the powerful vibrator into my clit through my thick diaper as my daddy kissed me and played with my tits. I was close to cumming but I needed an extra boost, so I asked Daddy to squish the mess in my pants. It felt so nice that I had an amazing orgasm in my messy diaper.

Daddy took his time cleaning me up while he changed me. I felt fresh and clean when he put me in some big girl panties to go to dinner.

Later, I told Daddy about the nervousness I felt while waiting for him to come home. He reassured me that he would always love coming home to a messy girl. It makes me happy that he loves my messy diapers just as much as I do!

Short and Sweet

My favorite way to cum is with my Hitachi Magic Wand through a nice, crinkly diaper. It works best for me if the diaper is not overly thick. It can be difficult to orgasm through a Dry 24/7, but an Abena Abri Form Super is just right.

Of course, I have the best orgasms when my diaper is full. I like Daddy to pat, smack, and squish my messy diapered bottom as he presses the Hitachi on the front of my pants, stimulating my clit. If Daddy makes me admit how much I love being his messy little girl, I cum hardest of all.

The Smell

I often hear about other ABDLs who want to enjoy the feeling of a messy diaper without the odor that goes along with it. Some diaper lovers substitute the real thing by putting oatmeal or bananas in the back of their pants. I've also heard from ABDLs who want to get their hands on that pill that takes the smell out of poo. As a girl with a very big fetish for messy diapers, I personally don't understand this. If my messes didn't smell at all, they wouldn't be as fun!

One thing I like about my messes having an odor is the fact that they make it very obvious I've had an accident. I could never hide a dirty diaper from my Daddy; he would know I'd messed when the smell hit the air. I once went potty my Dry 24/7 while Daddy was at work. As soon as he walked in the door, he knew he had a messy little girl on his hands.

Another thing I enjoy about the odor of my messy pants is the humiliation factor. I embarrasses me to be daddy's stinky little girl, and humiliation turns me on more than anything.

My First Time With Daddy

The first time I messed my diaper with Daddy is one of my most embarrassing memories and one of my fondest.

I was visiting my boyfriend for a long weekend and he dictated that I must wear diapers during the whole trip and not use the grown-up potty at all. I knew that I would experience my first messy diaper with Daddy and was quite nervous, especially when it came time to be changed. We talked about it beforehand and I told Daddy I was afraid he would think that I was gross or icky. He assured me that he would never think and would love changing my dirty diapeHe was able to comfort me, but he couldn't fully rid me of my trepidation.

During the trip, I wound up being constipated. I was not drinking enough water, and combined with the food I was eating and my anxiousness, I found myself quite backed up after my first few nights there. In addition to that, I broke a rule. While out one night, I was changing my diaper in a bathroom stall when I realized I had not quite finished peeing. Due to convenience, I decided to use the grown-up potty and relieve my bladder. I immediately felt guilty and told Daddy what I'd done. He forgave me, kissed my cheek, and told me he'd be punishing me the next day. I was nervous but very excited at the prospect.

The next day, my punishment started with a spanking. After that, I was forced to wear a wet Molicare while Daddy and I took a walk to a drug store. At the store, my daddy chose a saline enema and told me to go buy it while he waited outside. I felt so embarrassed purchasing the enema and knowing that I would soon be taking it. During the walk home, I anxiously held onto Daddy's hand and tried my hardest to keep myself calm. I was scared of the idea that I would soon be in a messy diaper in front of my new boyfriend.

Back at his place, Daddy changed me out of my wet Molicare and put me in a fresh Abena. He told me that I needed the enema because it wasn't healthy that I hadn't gone to the potty in a few days. He also reminded me that I was being punished for breaking his rule, but told me if I was able to hold the enema for a half hour, he might let me use the big girl potty.

Daddy had me roll onto my tummy and he pulled down my diaper. After lubing up the nozzle, he inserted the tip of the enema into my bottom. I whimpered a bit as he squeezed the contents of the enema into me. After filling me with the saline solution, Daddy pulled up my Abena made me stand in the corner.

While in the corner of his room, I felt very nervous and submissive. I heard the click of a camera as my boyfriend took a few pictures of me, but I dared not turn around. I wanted to be a good girl for Daddy, and I wanted to hold my enema as long as possible in the hopes I might earn the chance to use the toilet. After 15 minutes, the urge to expel hit me and I started fidgeting. From behind me,  Daddy said, "Someone's getting desperate" and I felt my cheeks flush. 

After 20 minutes, I felt absolutely desperate and peaked behind me, squeaking a soft, "Daddy?" Daddy asked me if I had to go and I said yes, so he invited me to come sit on his lap. He said that he was impressed I'd held my enema for 20 whole minutes and told me to just relax and let go. I was scared, but my daddy caressed my back and assured that it would be okay.

Nausea from the saline enema gripped me and I held tightly onto Daddy as I started messing my thick diaper. I whimpered in his ear, feeling embarrassed and helpless. I couldn't have held back any longer if I had tried.

I shifted positions a few times during the process of expelling as my enema came out in spurts. When the need to potty tightened the feeling in my belly and made me feel queasy, I no longer cared how embarrassing it was to mess my Abena; I just wanted to feel better. Daddy held me and reassured me and felt my bottom as I filled my diaper. I remember sitting on my hands and knees on his bed and relieving myself into my heavy pants as Daddy watched from behind. I couldn't believe how much poo was in me! I kept going and going and still wasn't done!

Eventually, after most of the mess from the enema had expelled, I noticed how hard my boyfriend's lovely cock was. Daddy bade me to get on my knees on the floor beside his bed and I started eagerly sucking his cock. I love taking my daddy's dick in my mouth. Going down on him is one of my favorite things to do. 

I rubbed the front of my diaper as I sucked, and that is when the last of the enema hit me. I pulled away from Daddy's cock and told him that I was about to mess in my diaper some more. I knew Daddy would love knowing that I was helplessly pooing while I eagerly pleasured him. Daddy groaned and called me his messy little diaper slut before cumming in my mouth. Like a good girl, I swallowed every drop.

I got on Daddy's bed on my knees and he reached into my heavy, full Abena and started rubbing my little clit. At this point, I realized just how messy I was. I never knew I could poo this much and was shocked at what a few days of constipation combined with an enema could do. After Daddy pleasured me for a minute or two, I asked him to stop because I was afraid my diaper would leak and was scared that his hand would get dirty. I was right about the second part, which made me embarrassed, but he didn't seem to mind. 

I was too scared of a potential leak to stay in my messy diaper any longer. Daddy spread out a towel on his floor and had me lie down. Feeling the mess squish against me as I laid on my back was very strange, and that's when the shock of the scene really hit me. I never knew I would be lying in such a full diaper, and was so embarrassed to have just done this with a new boyfriend. Tears welled up in my eyes as Daddy handed me my stuffed animal. I was afraid to let him change me and see the mess in my pants, but he assured me that it would be okay.

As Daddy untaped my full Abena, I glanced down my body and got a peak at the mess inside. I was so humiliated to have done this that a few tears leaked out as I squeezed my stuffy. Daddy spoke to me in a sweet, calm voice, soothing me as he changed me. He cleaned me up without much difficulty, to my surprise, and put me in a fresh, comfortable diaper. 

After it was all over, Daddy and I lay on his bed and he held me and caressed my back. He was able to calm me and keep my tears at bay after the intense scene. I felt very well taken care of and so loved in that moment.

To this day, I'm still shocked at what a big mess I made and I haven't made another one like it since! I'm a bit embarrassed to think that my first messy diaper with Daddy was that full, but I'm also very happy it happened. If Daddy could handle such a big mess, then I knew he could handle any of my messes. In fact, he can handle anything. He's the best Daddy ever.

What I Love About Messy Diapers

I've had a fetish for ageplay and diapers for quite some time, but I often went through phases of denying my love of messy diapers. Even among other fetishists, it is often seen as taboo and gross and I sometimes found myself ashamed by the dirty interest. Once in a while, those feelings of shame still arise, and my daddy comforts me and is able to quell them.

Lately, I've been frustrated about my inability to talk about dirty diapers with anyone but Daddy, so I had the idea for this blog. Daddy supports me in this endeavor and may even make some guest blogger appearances! 

There are many things I love about pooping in diapers, and I was slowly able to reveal these to Daddy as we got to know one another. I've never listed them all out before and I've rarely even broached the subject with anyone else, but here I go!

What I love about messy diapers:

1. Humiliation. Feeling humiliated and embarrassed is a very big turn on for me. I like humiliation outside of diaper play, but there is nothing sexier than feeling embarrassed because I've gone potty in my pants. 
2. Helplessness/Submission. Messing my pants and relying on Daddy to change me makes me feel like a helpless little girl. It brings me to a highly sexual submissive state of mind.
3. Squishiness. I love the feeling of a mess in my pants. My favorite part is when daddy puts his hand on my diapered bottom and squishes it against me. It reminds me of what a dirty little girl I am and it feels so good, shooting bolts of arousal straight through me.
4. Relief. When I really, really have to go potty - like I do after Daddy gives me an enema - it feels so nice to be able to relieve myself, and I don't even have to go to the bathroom to do it! I can just relax and fill my pants while my daddy holds me.
5. Turning on Daddy. I know that when I go poo in my diaper, it turns on my daddy just as much as it does me. I love being able to make him very hard.
   

I'm sure I can come up with more things I love about messing diapers, but those have to be the top five for me!